Diary

Alright, no drunk challenge-playing this week.

QUESTION: If I win POV this time, I can use it to save Gaston, despite also being HOH, right? Like, I can change my own nominations?

Yes you can

Just keep in mind the person not on the block ultimately is the only vote to evict.

I get that. That's part of the plan here.

Thank you, Emma. May Celine bless you.

I still think that one was unfair.

"My first is a letter often used in texting"

Nowhere does it imply the letter is used alone. "lol" is a text acronym. And "t" is often (twice) used in the word "texting". Nothing about that suggest "k" would be the only right answer. RAGE! <3

Alright. Home stretch. I need to win one more challenge and then I'm in the final 2 (it's possible I can make it there without winning, but... I'm not relying on that completely). So, buzzed (not quite drunk) rant about the game...

When the game started, I didn't even really care (sorry). I showed up for challenges, I responded to PMs if I felt like it, but... I wasn't invested. That changed. The challenges this game have been, for the most part, a lot of fun. I started to like Woody a lot, and I enjoyed Gretmel being all over me (love you!), so... I stuck around.

Gaston wasn't even here for the first couple challenges. Finally, he PM'd me asking me to save him, and I latched on. Through him I heard that Mulan was targeting me, and Boo mentioned "The Spice Girls", and from then on... the game was on. Actually, poop on this. I'm just going to give a case rundown.

John Smith - no McLovin' clue

Kaa - his avatar was cool

Hopper - um, yeah

Scott Calvin - He was interesting. I actually tried to talk with him, start a real conversation. He responded to my last message with "Lol", so I stopped bothering. When I won HOH, he PM'd me again acting like he was my biggest ally, saying we should request a private room. I kind of passively brushed him off. Then I backdoored him. Then he was evicted and went apeshit. Joke apeshit, anyway (I think?). Maybe a little real apeshit considering he told Mulan I was targeting her (which I never said any such thing). So, yeah. There's that. Whatever.

Boo - You guys should know my conflict regarding Boo. Was it Pete? I really don't know. I talked to Boo a little, too, and really liked her/him. We talked about how our characters were the best thing in their respective movies. Boo was fun to talk to. Alas, I didn't talk to her (him?) much. My reason for nominating him (her?) really was because I had talked to Boo less than most. I felt horrible about it.

Woody - This was the first eviction that really hurt me. I liked Woody when I first talked to him... then I thought he was Turner (who I like a lot, but in a game... hell no). Briefly I thought he was Tom pretending to be like Turner. Tom played as Sweet Solitude in the first game I played (the last Lsquared), and I remember Sweet Solitude seeming Woody-esque at times. Eh. I really have no McLovin' idea who Woody is. Mulan et al got the idea I was working with Woody... It was partially true. I gave him the answers to a challenge, he was the person I went to most the first couple rounds, before Gaston. I was going around PM'ing people that Olaf would probably be the vote, and then Lady Tremaine called me out on it and I stopped. I really was trying to save Woody - just without putting my neck too much on the line. And it failed. I guess that made me closer with Gaston, though. All the same, I wish Woody had stayed in the game longer. I may have truly worked with him if he had. I don't know, though. Wasn't happy about him being evicted.

Lady Tremaine - Lolz. I didn't trust Lady for BACK AT IT AGAIN. But I liked her (him?) a lot. Obviously she lied to me a fair amount, if simply by omission (and I did the same), but I did feel like she wasn't *immediately* against me. If anything, I felt like calling me out on suggesting Olaf was her way of telling me to stop, that I was digging myself into a hole. I certainly wasn't her main ally (nor was she mine), but I think she maybe wanted me for back-up? idk. I was upset about her being evicted, too, but not as upset as I was about Woody being evicted.

Pocahontas - LOLZ! I really did try to make it a game... I started writing long-BOOTY messages to her just to see how short her response would be. Then she'd turn around and Gretel about us not talking enough. Always with a sad face, too. From what I currently know, she was targeting me and doing a piss poor job of it. This game involves a lot of lying, so I never hold it against people for lying. But that "we should talk more " guilt while targeting me? Eh. poop on it. I finally just stopped responding to her. Anything I'd say would get around to others, likely in some twisted form. So it seemed best to not say anything. This isn't to say I dislike her (she was playing, and doing pretty well for a while)... but for the purpose of this game? Happy she was evicted.

Olaf - My best guess here is Mets or Duck, but I'm not confident about that. Which is funny... Mets and Duck are nothing alike, or I didn't think they were, but they do seem to love each other. Mets is better at challenges than Olaf, though. idk. Either way... Olaf is one of my biggest regrets of the game. I opportunistically swooped in to try to lure him my way. I had talked to him before, lots of warm hugs and all that, but... It's interesting how once I really started talking to him, he started seeming very different - smarter, really. All along, all I had to do was be (somewhat) honest with him... I just had to break that barrier first. I wish I had done it sooner. By the time I did, it was nothing but a ploy - and I think he realized that when he was evicted. He sent me a PM wishing me luck in the game, and I felt like BACK AT IT AGAIN. But by that time, Gaston and I were in full swing, and I couldn't betray Gaston. Still, I wish I had REALLY talked to Olaf earlier in the game. Despite him sucking at challenges, for the little I really talked to I liked him a lot, and I would've been happy to work with him. I really didn't mean for him to be evicted when came up with the plan to make him Narissa's replacement. I was just trying to get Gaston to see I had his back, and - as a secondary purpose - trying to gain a little bit of Narissa's trust without totally losing Olaf's. And I failed miserably.

Elsa - I love Elsa. I might be wrong about who she is - I probably am - but either way, I truly adore Elsa. I was most loyal to Gaston, but I admit there was still part of me wanting to see if Elsa would outlast him. I wasn't going to sacrifice Gaston for Elsa's sake, but I also kinda hoped she'd pull through. When she voted Olaf, knowing Mulan had been targeting me (or at least knowing that was the word going around)... it wasn't so much that I wanted to get rid of Elsa for that, just that I no longer had any argument to keep her around. For ages, I was trying - subtly - to get Elsa and Gaston closer, so we could form a 3 person alliance. But with her voting to evict Olaf, that hope went out the window. Whoever she is (if she's who I think she is, it was a nice change of pace, something I missed), I loved talking to her throughout this game. Maybe more than anyone else. Gaston too, in a different way. But Elsa is great. Big fan, man.

Mulan - Lolz. I actually really like Mulan. Rachael, maybe? Between her and Pocahontas, Sam and Merriska have crossed my mind, too (Pocahontas reminded me of Audrey from Lsquared, thus that association). I really barely talk to any of you people outside of public threads... get off my back! idk. We didn't even start talking until we were at odds, so there was always a bit of a stand-off. In terms of the game, talking to her at all was just appeasing her. But aside from the game, she's amazing, too. I'd gladly talk to her after the game. But in terms of the game itself? She should've been out sooner. Great social game (it seemed like there was a period where everyone relied on her, to some degree). And I came around, with my nominating her then making a deal with her and stick to it just to make her choose (lolz), and ruined all of that. <3 Still, she's great.

Narissa - IS NARISSA MISTY? Misty is for real one of my favorite people on the board. All around awesome person, and I love talking to her. If Narissa is Misty, I wish I had really talked to her earlier in the game. I would've jumped at the chance to work with her. Given the option, I would always work with Misty. Even if Narissa isn't Misty... I guess kind of like Olaf. Once that barrier was broken, she became a different person entirely. From short, generic messages to, like, a really cool person. Unfortunately, by the time I really talked to her, I was already working with Gaston (maybe not unfortunately... Gaston has been a great ally, even if at first it was because he just couldn't catch me). Still... while I really hope Gaston and I are final 2, a small part of me is kind of rooting for Narissa (preferably with her winning the final HOH, not with Gaston winning and choosing her instead of me).

Gaston - I really don't know who Gaston is... Justin, Neil, Tom, even Henry... they've all crossed my mind. Based on what he said about a concert that should end before the challenge, I'd guess he's in the UK. So, maybe Neil. OR WHAT IF HE'S PETE? Based on his response to Mulan, Neil or Tom would make more sense. Based on the concert thing (and some comments his past challenge), Neil would make more sense. Regardless... We've come this far in the game, I've even voted to evict Elsa for him... So if I win the final HOH, I'm taking him. Whether or not he takes me? I'm really not sure. To be fair, allying with me has been really good protection throughout this game (though I could say the same about him). Still, he's been a great ally throughout this game, has given me tons of information that proved incredibly valuable, and I've really enjoyed talking to him. Not gonna lie, there have been times I've doubted him... but he's come through. So, thank you, Gaston. You're awesome.

Dodger - A zoo only had a dog on exhibit. It was a shih tzu.

This game has been a lot of fun. Thank you, Kathy, for inviting me. Thank you, Mel, for bantering with me. Thank you, Nat, for lol'ing at me. <3

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LOLZ! 2 days into jury questioning, and only 2 jurors (out of 12) have actually asked questions.

I still have no clue who Gaston is. Mykee was my original thought (good at challenges, mad about people voting for him, easily annoyed with people... but really cool), hence "someone I've worked with before". The Neil suspicion was just a drunken thing based on like 2 comments of his in that one challenge, but I backed down from that as soon as I wrote it. Justin was based on Kathy's Idol game, but I have worked with him before and Justin can be oddly intelligent when he's trying. New York would make sense for Gaston being Sam - but it could also be Mykee traveling. I have this hope/paranoia that everyone is Tom, always. I love Tom, but he's sneaky. There are a number of regulars on the Games Board I've never interacted with... I think it's because I was so close with Gaston through this game that it's difficult for me to not just see him as Gaston.

Woody is definitely Turner, right? Only Turner would vehemently deny being Turner. <3 I actually like Turner a lot, so I don't mean that as an insult. But for the purpose of the game... heh.

I don't know. I could easily approach these jury answers in a different way, and maybe I would have under different circumstances. But it's just kind of... I don't know. I like the idea of Gaston and I not going at each others' throats. I remember trying to do that with Finn in iBB (her idea), her sensing she was losing ground, then turning around and taking full credit for things I did, and blaming me for things that were fully collaborative, and I kind of ripped her a new one. It was a mess, and I haven't talked to her since. <3 Also, Gaston played a great game. Stronger than mine in a lot of ways.

I'm interested to see what Elsa will say, if she shows up. But yeah, 2 out of 12 jurors have actually asked questions. Lolz.

Ha! I finally read the "Episodes" thread, posted ages ago. lol @ how many of those requests I did follow: a few of my Diary posts reveal my identity, I requested private rooms here rather than PM, etc...

I also just wasn't very diligent about explaining everything in my diary, albeit there are moments I did long summaries. I'm gonna go through and set up threads to copy/paste the PMs I still have. Those from the first half of the game are gone, unfortunately - including all of those from the busiest PM era of the game. But it's something. My bad.